abandon
aban*don
verb
{bc}to give up to the control or influence of another person or agent
abandon
noun
{bc}a thorough yielding to natural impulses
abandon oneself to
idiom
{bc}to allow oneself to be fully controlled or affected by (something, such as a strong emotion)
with reckless abandon
idiom
{bc}in a very wild and reckless way
abandon/drop all pretense at
idiom
{bc}to stop acting or appearing in a way that looks real but is false {bc}to stop pretending